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A Siren for the Duke (Preview)

Prologue

Portsmouth, England
June 1808

“Lionel, wait!” Jemima cried, her voice piercing the stillness of the dark night.
She trotted to catch up with him, but he was taller, and his legs were longer. Every time she got closer, just within reach, he would bound away again, laughing.
The full silver moon, the first official one of summer, shone down upon the tranquil beach. It cast a gentle glow on the waves, which lapped gently against the sand. The very air seemed alive with a symphony of crashing tides and whispering breezes, as if nature herself had conspired to serenade her. A faint aroma of salt mingled with the fragrance of wildflowers that clung to part of the boardwalk not far behind her. All of this – the smells, the sights, the very feeling of being with Lionel in this way – filled her body with a heady delight. Her very hands trembled with the giddiness at being so free. Running along the sand like this, she hardly remembered society and cared not for the opinions of the ton.
She stopped, her heart warm with happiness as she looked out at the vast expanse of the ocean, its dark depths stretching out. In the obscurity, the sea met the sky, and there was no telling where one began and the other ended. The only indication of some sort of separation was the glowing moon, which reflected upon the water. Lionel stood by her side, his strong arm wrapped around her waist, drawing her closer to his warmth. The sea breeze gently tousled their hair, causing strands to dance playfully across their faces.
“We ought to go in, don’t you think?” Lionel, ever the daring soul, led the way, pulling Jemima toward the lapping waves. His blue eyes twinkled with mischief.
“At this very moment?” Jemima asked, her hazel eyes widening in surprise.
“Pray tell, why should we wait?”
“If I return home with a wet hem, my maid will be sure to tell my mother, and that will be the end of me,” Jemima said lightheartedly, although there was a bit of fear to her words. Much as she loved her ladies’ maid, she’d learned that all servants loved to gossip, and she did not want her mother to find out about this secret affair with Lionel Hunt. He was a second son, after all –mothers never wanted second sons for their daughters.
“Then we shall fabricate a story for you. ‘Twould be a shame to not take advantage of tonight.”
His smile was so genuine she could not help but follow his lead. And… with him leaving so soon, it might be the last bit of fun they’d have for a while.
Lionel took Jemima’s hand, and the both of them waded ankle-deep into the cool embrace of the sea, their laughter mingling with the sound of the rolling surf. There was something about tonight that felt electric and magical. As the moon glowed on the water, each cresting wave brought forth a kaleidoscope of sparkling diamonds, as if the ocean was bestowing its own gift upon the young couple. Jemima watched, captivated, as the foam-tipped waves crashed against the shore, their frothy tendrils reaching out like delicate fingers, embracing the sand before receding back into the depths. The water caressed Jemima’s feet, sending ripples of delight up her spine. The sensation of the sea’s touch was both invigorating and soothing, a gentle reminder of the vastness of the world beyond the confines of her everyday life. With Lionel by her side, she felt as if the possibilities were endless, like the uncharted sea before her.
As the waves rose higher, Lionel took Jemima’s hand and led her deeper into the water. The cool liquid enveloped her legs, and she let out a playful shriek, clutching onto his arm for support. The sensation of Lionel’s strong grip and the weightlessness of the water beneath her feet filled her with a sense of security and freedom, as if they were the only two souls in the world, lost in their own private paradise.
Jemima’s laughter rang out, echoing against the vast expanse of the night sky. The sound seemed to mingle with the crashing waves and carry away all the worries and constraints of their society. At that moment, she felt truly alive, unburdened by the expectations and limitations imposed upon her.
Lionel twirled her around, their bodies moving in perfect harmony with the rhythm of the sea. The ebb and flow of the tide created a gentle sway, like a lover’s dance, as they glided through the depths. Jemima’s heart swelled with love and gratitude, knowing she had found her soul’s partner in Lionel. The ton be damned, she’d have this second son no matter what they said about it.
When he put her down, and they began to walk back to shore, a cold splash of water hit her square in the back. Shocked, she turned around to see Lionel grinning like a cat.
“Oh, you cannot get away with this!” she shouted playfully and crashed through the water, scooping up a handful and throwing it at him. And, of course, he retaliated. It was not long before the two of them were soaked, exhausted, and laughing; the horrors of Jemima’s wet hem entirely forgotten.
They trudged toward the shore, chests heaving as they collapsed on the solid, damp sand. In that moonlit embrace, their laughter turned to whispers, their gazes locked in a shared understanding. Jemima’s senses heightened, absorbing every detail — the taste of salt on her lips, the soft caress of Lionel’s hand on her cheek, the distant melody of a nightingale singing its nocturnal serenade.
But all good things must come to an end, and she was dreading the morning. Lionel was to ship out with the rest of the Royal Navy detachment. She hadn’t meant for such thoughts to manifest themselves on her face, but evidently, Lionel noticed.
“I hope that dour look is not all about your hem. I’m given to understand that ladies take several trips to the modiste. Surely it can be replaced,” he teased.
“I do like this gown, but it is not my hem about which I am worried. I am thinking about another garment…” she said, her voice drifting off.
“Do tell. You are so mysterious at times,” Lionel said, reaching out and tucking a wet strand of light brown hair behind her ear.
“Well, we ladies must have our secrets to keep us interesting,” she teased, but it did not sound nearly as flirtatious as she wished. “I was thinking of your naval uniform. And then… of course…”
She did not have to finish her sentence for Lionel to understand what she was talking about. Tomorrow was the day. The two of them had enjoyed their secret romps together for quite some time now. Jemima had valiantly staved off any potential suitors, much to her mother’s dismay and occasional outrage. She only had eyes for Lionel, but tomorrow, he’d be gone.
“It shall not be too long a voyage,” Lionel said, his voice uncharacteristically hushed. Even though he was trying to comfort her, Jemima sensed the nervousness in his voice. It would be his first official post with the Royal Navy, and even though it was just across the Irish Sea, that did not mean there wouldn’t be danger. Pirates had long been out of fashion, but that did not stop small, roving bands from terrorizing merchant ships, trying to cross that small body of water. His battalion was shipping out to put a stop to it.
“I know. But… it will still be dangerous,” she protested gently.
“Maybe.”
“You are not helping to assuage my fears,” she said, half-teasing.
Lionel shook his head, black curls framing his face.
“I, too, am worried. But I shall put on a brave face. It was either this, the clergy, or killing my brother, I suppose…” he tried to lighten their mood with a joke …”and as I do not want to kill him, and the clergy seems rather dull… I do not think I could survive as a man of the cloth,” he said, tongue in cheek.
“You are horrid!” she said with a laugh.
“Horace is a fine brother! And I do not desire the dukedom so much as to forcibly take it from him. No, he shall do his duty just fine. Perhaps Edmund will go into the clergy. He’s got the sniveling face for it.”
“Not all clergymen are bad,” Jemima chastened.
“No, they just live off the land of the people they claim to shepherd. Sometimes they might even grace your threshold and say a prayer.”
“Oh, and the Royal Navy does not exploit the English at all?” Jemima asked, an eyebrow raised. It was rare she engaged in political conversation, but sometimes, with Lionel’s penchant for sarcastic comments, she found herself having to reason with him and talk him down.
“An excellent counterpoint,” Lionel said with a sigh.
“Sometimes I wish you had chosen the clergy route, though,” Jemima said ruefully, snuggling closer to him. He wrapped a strong arm around her and kissed her temple. “I think you’d look very smart in that white collar. We could have lived in the countryside, had a little garden.”
“There would be nothing for you to be proud of, though,” he countered.
“Lionel,” she adjusted herself so she was looking directly into his eyes, “I am proud of you no matter what. You do not have to fight foreign enemies at sea for me to care about you. I see the man that you are, and you are noble, kind, and thoughtful. That is well enough for me.”
“I cannot break a promise. I have signed the contract already. I’d be seen as a coward if I broke it,” he said.
“I know. But that will not stop me from worrying about you every single day.”
“And I you,” he said, bringing her delicate hand to his mouth and kissing it gently. “When I return, this… sneaking about, you having to stave off suitors… it will be a thing of the past. We shall do things properly. I’ll ask for your hand, and we shall marry.”
“I will wait for you,” she said solemnly.
There was nothing either of them could add after that declaration of steadfastness, so they sat on the shore until the moon dipped back. Soon enough, the sun would begin to rise. Jemima didn’t want that; it would mean this little fantasy, this happy time, would end. And as confident as he tried to sound, it was still a dangerous posting, and she might well never see him again.
“We ought to get you back. I still hope you’ll be able to see me off at the docks,” he said, rising to his feet and brushing the sand off his breeches, then extending a hand to help her up.
She took it with a sigh, agreeing. If she were to get back home in time, she’d need to be quick about it.
“Oh! I nearly forgot,” she said, fishing a small organza drawstring bag from her bodice. Lionel raised an eyebrow, and she stuck her tongue out at him.
Thankfully it hadn’t gotten too wet, tucked away between her stays and her chemise. When she held it out to Lionel, he looked at it curiously before he realized what it was.
“A lock of your hair?” he asked, holding up the little bag in the moonlight.
She nodded. “So that you keep a piece of me wherever you go,” she explained.
It was hard to tell, even in the light of the moon, but she could swear she saw his eyes tear up at the gesture.
“I… thank you, Jemima. I’ll treasure it always. I have nothing to give you…”
“Give me your cravat,” she said gently, even though the words were commanding. “Say you lost it in a night of drinking before shipping out, if anyone asks.”
He did not need telling twice. Lionel unfastened the rather stifling piece of clothing, still damp from their splash fight earlier, and handed it to her.
“What will you do with it?”
“Embroider your initials on it, then perhaps keep it as a handkerchief. I…I will remember you always, no matter what, but this… it’s you. It even smells like you.”
“That cannot be entirely pleasant,” he teased.
“It is to me.” Her voice was soft and sincere, with no time for jokes.
There was not a lot he could say in reply to that, and Jemima hated that she’d ruined the mood with such earnestness and worry. The walk back to her home was silent – though not from awkwardness or anger. They were happy just to be with one another, but each thought of the morning and how they’d be parted for some time once the sun rose.
Once they were back at Upton House, all windows still shut and black, all occupants presumably asleep, Jemima knew it was time to go their separate ways.
“I don’t want you to go,” she whispered. They were just out of sight of the house behind the back garden wall.
“I’ll be back. It will be so fast, Jemima. Like the blink of an eye. You’ll hardly even think of me when the Season starts.”
“You know I’ll always think of you.”
“And I you,” he whispered back. As if on cue, they melted into each other in a sweet, passionate kiss. If the night watchman had raised an alarm at that moment, Jemima would not have cared. It would almost be sweet relief to be caught in a scandal, to then have to marry Lionel.
But no one saw, and there was no noise – just the feel of his lips on hers and his hands on her waist.
When at last they stopped, the sun was just beginning to rise. Lionel would have to report for duty in a matter of hours.
“I’ll try to convince Mama to let us join everyone at the docks and see off the ship,” she said breathlessly.
“I’ll look for you in the crowd if you’re there.”
“I love you,” she whispered, so quietly even she was not sure she heard them.
“I love you,” he whispered back forehead pressed against hers. “Keep a weather eye on the horizon.”
After one more gentle kiss to her forehead, he disappeared into the streets of Portsmouth.
At that moment, she knew exactly what she’d embroider on the cravat handkerchief – a rising sun over the ocean waves, as a reminder to do just as he had advised.

Chapter One

July, 1810

Alas, she never had seen him off at the docks that fateful day.
Lady Upton, Jemima’s strict and imperious mother, had made sure her daughters’ days were full of activities during the social season. They’d said their goodbyes on the beach that night, but somehow, not seeing him off that morning, even in secret, felt like a betrayal on her part. The last time she’d seen Lionel Hunt was just outside the garden of Upton House in Portsmouth.
When they had said adieu, the dim light of the approaching dawn had cast a hushed atmosphere upon the silence of the house. Jemima’s gown, previously a lovely pale green silk, was drenched and clung to her like seaweed. The smell of it, and its disheveled state, suggested something wild and clandestine. Her skirts rustled with each movement, the soaked fabric whispering secrets of forbidden desire. The sun had just began to peak over the horizon. Usually, no one was awake at that time but the servants. Jemima had definitely overstayed at the beach with Lionel, so she had had to be careful when sneaking inside. She had tread carefully across the garden toward the rather imposing manor, both her sanctuary and, at times, her prison, with a mixture of trepidation and longing. The warbled glass window panes glimmered with a soft, golden light, a stark contrast to the darkness that had enveloped her outside. But she had not seen any figures moving inside, so she had decided to take her chances.
With a trembling hand, Jemima had reached for the white trellis fastened to the stone exterior. Her bedchamber was on the second floor, but there was absolutely no way she would have entered the house using the front door or any of the side doors, lest she risk being seen. Her fingers had grazed the cold metal, and she had hesitated, a wave of guilt crashing over her. Everyone in the ton thought of her as a graceful woman, conscious of manners, beautiful and polite. She had known the consequences that awaited her once her secret tryst was discovered – surely it was only a matter of time – but she had also known that a love like hers and Lionel’s could not be denied.
She had struggled with the latch on the window. It had made a little too much noise for her liking, and she had fallen into her bedroom with an ungraceful thump after the window had opened. But that wasn’t even the worst part – as soon as her body had hit the hardwood floor, her mother’s voice had cut through the darkness, sharp and demanding.
“Jemima!” Lady Upton had hissed, her face only half-lit with the small candle in the brass holder. She had been sitting in her nightgown and braided hair on the edge of the bed. Jemima had been utterly confused. Why was her mother in her bedchamber at this hour?
“Mama!” Jemima had said softly.
“Where have you been? And why are you dripping wet like some fishmonger’s wife?”
Jemima’s heart had sunk, her breath catching in her throat. The woman before her, normally a paragon of poise and elegance in the face of the ton, was a tempest of fury and disappointment.
“I-I…” Jemima had stammered, her voice barely above a whisper, as she had tried to conjure an excuse that might appease her mother’s wrath. But the words had caught in her throat, lost amidst the tumultuous emotions that had threatened to consume her–exhilaration, guilt, the anticipation of loss, love… all she had wanted to do was curl up and cry, but clearly, that was not going to happen.
Her mother’s eyes had narrowed, her gaze penetrating Jemima’s soul with an intensity that made her feel utterly exposed.
“Don’t even think about lying to me, young lady,” her mother had spat, her voice laced with disdain. “I can see it in your eyes, the guilt you carry like a scarlet letter.”
The weight of her mother’s words settled heavily upon Jemima’s shoulders, and she bowed her head in shame. The scent of wilted flowers mingled with the acrid taste of regret as tears welled up in her eyes, threatening to spill over.
“I-I was with Lionel,” Jemima had admitted, her voice trembling with the admission. “We had to say our goodbyes. He leaves with the Royal Navy at sunrise.”
Her mother’s eyes had widened, a mixture of shock and anger flickering across her face.
“You foolish girl!” she had exclaimed, her voice teetering on the edge of disbelief. “How could you jeopardize your reputation in such a manner? Lionel is a tar, Jemima. What future could you possibly have with him?”
Jemima’s heart ached at her mother’s words, the ache spreading like wildfire through her veins. She had felt the tendrils of societal expectations tightening around her, threatening to suffocate her hopes and dreams. But Lionel, with his black curls and eyes as blue as the open ocean, had stirred something incredible in her that she could not ignore.
“Mother,” Jemima had pleaded, her voice filled with a desperation that matched the pounding of her heart. “He’s not a tar. The Royal Navy is nothing to scoff at!”
“Royal or not, he’s still a second son. You are the first daughter of the noble house of Upton. You know you can do better. It is your duty to do better. And what if someone had seen you? Or heard you?!” Lady Upton had grown frantic.
Jemima had begun wringing out her hair with a towel she’d left hanging over the top of her Japanese screen.
“Mama, we are careful. We keep it a secret.”
“The ton has eyes everywhere. You are lucky I caught you before anyone else did!”
“I love him, Mama. I cannot fathom being with anyone else. Lionel is…” she had paused, her hazel eyes going misty as she struggled to think of a good analogy. “He is my anchor. Without him, I feel lost. Adrift at sea.”
Her mother’s stern expression had wavered for a moment as if caught between her duty as a mother and the realization that her daughter’s heart could not be swayed by societal expectations alone. Slowly, she had risen from her place on the edge of the bed and sighed with resignation.
“Jemima, I understand the power of love, but you must also understand the consequences of your actions. The world can be cruel, my dear, and it will not hesitate to crush you beneath its judgmental heel.”
Jemima had nodded, her eyes brimming with unshed tears. She knew that her mother had spoken from a place of wisdom and experience, her words etched with the scars of a life lived within the confines of society’s expectations. But even as the weight of her mother’s disapproval settled upon her shoulders like a winter cloak, she could not deny the flame that burned within her.
With a steadying breath, Jemima had met her mother’s gaze, her voice filled with a newfound resolve.
“I love Lionel, Mama, and I cannot deny that love any longer. If it means facing the scorn of the ton, so be it. I would rather be true to myself than live a life filled with regret.”
Her mother’s face had softened, her eyes glistening with unshed tears. Slowly, she had reached out, her hand trembling as it cupped her daughter’s cheek.
“Oh, my dear Jemima,” she had whispered, her voice thick with emotion. “I can only hope that love will prove stronger than the storms that lie ahead.”

***

This is unfair, Jemima thought, glowering at her mother, who sat in the corner with a glass of lemonade, all smiles and kind words for the modiste. How can she pretend all is well? How could she do this to me?
Most young ladies looked forward to their wedding for their entire lives. All their training, lessons, balls, and parties led up to that moment. Jemima felt anything but elated. She felt repulsed. Indeed, her stomach turned at the thought of even holding the Marquess’s clammy hand at the altar. And to think her mother and her eldest brother Ferdinand had orchestrated it all! Really, after being caught sneaking home, Jemima thought her mother understood some of her pain. But no. The moment the scandal hit, any ideas of the strength of love in the face of a cruel society were tossed out the window. If there was one thing that Lady Upton could not abide, it was a poor self-image.
Apparently, a maid had been passing through the hallway outside and heard Jemima and her mother talking that fateful night. She spread the juicy bit of gossip about the secret affair with Lionel Hunt to the rest of the Upton servants, and it was not long before it reached the upper echelons of the ton. It was all anyone could talk about for weeks. The Upton House had received many “sorrows, prayers” cards from friends as if a secret affair were worse than illness or death.
Jemima had thought nothing of it until suitors stopped calling at the house–not just for her, but for her younger sister as well. The guilt was eating her alive, so when the Marquess of Kingsbury offered his hand in marriage, her brother Ferdinand and mother pounced, forcing her to accept. There was nothing to be done. The banns had been published and read for the past three weeks at church, and the marriage license had been procured. Jemima’s fate was all but set in blood.
All of this she recalled as she stood in front of the grand mirror in the modiste’s opulent salon. She barely recognized the woman in the mirror – hollow cheeks, dark circles under her eyes, and a thin frame – not at all the blushing bride one might expect. The gown itself, resplendent in ivory silk and adorned with delicate lace and intricate beading, hung from a nearby screen, awaiting its final adjustments. The room was filled with the scent of fresh flowers and the gentle rustle of satin as the seamstresses bustled about, their nimble fingers weaving magic into every stitch.
Evidently, such thoughts were revealed in her countenance.
“Jemima, darling, why such a sour face?” Lady Upton pressed. “Are you not happy to marry?”
“Mama, you very well know the answer to that,” she said through gritted teeth.
“The Marquess of Kingsbury is an honorable man with a distinguished lineage. The alliance will secure our family’s position and ensure a prosperous future for you and Sophia, especially after your carelessness,” Ferdinand said, not even looking up from his newspaper. He was only here because he held the purse strings. After their father’s death, he’d assumed the family title and all the duties. Jemima also suspected he took some sort of perverse pleasure in torturing her this way.
Jemima turned her gaze toward her mother, completely ignoring her brother, her eyes filled with a mix of defiance and sadness.
“But what of love, Mama? What of my own happiness?”
The rustle of the paper told Jemima she’d really caught Ferdinand’s attention.
“Your own happiness?” he asked incredulously. Even his dark sideburns seemed to tremble as he spoke. “Very bold of you to think you deserve such a thing when you plunged our family into scandal.”
“Ferdinand, that’s enough!” Lady Upton scolded her son, then she sighed, her tone softened by a hint of sympathy.
“Love, my dear, is a fickle companion. It often dissipates with the passing of time. Without support – financial, societal, familial – what else is there? You must learn to put your own desires aside for the greater good of your family. You have seen the ugly side of love, now, have you not?”
“Indeed. When was the last time you even heard from Lieutenant Hunt?” Ferdinand asked in a mocking voice.
Jemima’s hands balled into fists at her sides, and had they not been in a public place, she would have flown at him and walloped him.
“It has been a while,” Jemima admitted, her teeth still gritted. “I’m sure it is difficult to receive mail whilst aboard a ship.”
“For two years?” Ferdinand asked. “There are special ships that deliver correspondence. And the Irish Sea is not so wide. On a clear day, you can practically see Cork from Truro.”
When Jemima looked as if she might cry upon hearing her brother’s words, Lady Upton touched Ferdinand’s hand with her fan and shot daggers at him with her eyes.
“My dear,” her mother said, “I think what your brother is trying – and failing – to say is that we all have our part to play in this grand dance of society. Our duty is not always easy or fair, but it is what is expected of us. The Marquess of Kingsbury will provide for you, protect you, and ensure the family’s prosperity. You must think beyond your own desires. You want your sister to have excellent matches, do you not?”
Jemima’s heart sank as she listened to her mother and brother, their words like an iron cage slowly closing around her. Unfortunately, they were right. She had permanently stained the Upton reputation. Even if the scandal had broken two years ago, no amount of scrubbing or cleaning could completely erase it. People would always whisper. Poor Sophia did not deserve that. And neither did her mother, image-conscious as she was.
Jemima did not have a chance to reply, as the modiste approached at that moment.
“Lady Jemima, it is time for your final fitting. Let us see the gown in its full glory.”
Lady Upton beamed and clapped her hands.
With a heavy sigh, Jemima approached the mannequin, her fingers tracing the delicate lace that adorned the bodice. The gown shimmered under the soft glow of the salon’s chandeliers, its intricate details capturing the light and casting a mesmerizing spell. Jemima followed the modiste and two of the seamstresses behind the screen, where they helped her out of her light pink muslin day gown and into the confection that was her wedding gown.
As the modiste and her assistants worked to fit the gown to Jemima’s form, the weight of her predicament settled deeper within her. Each delicate pin prick was a painful reminder of the life she was being forced to embrace. As they laced up her stays, Jemima could only think that this was some way of sealing her fate – of tying her into something she wanted no part of.
When the gown was on, the modiste led her back out into the parlor, where Lady Upton let out a cry of happiness, and Ferdinand nodded approvingly. With the veil and the small jeweled headpiece, she looked like a princess – all the prettiness with none of the power.
“Oh, Madame LaBleu, you have outdone yourself!” Lady Upton exclaimed.
“She will be the most beautiful bride of the season,” one of the seamstresses beamed.
“You look very fine indeed,” Ferdinand said, nodding in approval.
Even other young ladies and their mothers in the modiste shop chirped and showered her with compliments. Weddings were fairly common at the end of every Season, but it was still thrilling to see a young woman in her bridal gown outside of the church – it was like a beacon of hope for other young ladies. The girls eyed Jemima with awe and wonder, and she had a feeling they were thinking that if she could find a husband, so could they.
And then Jemima caught her mother’s eye. A warning flashed behind it – not another outburst about true love, she seemed to say.
So Jemima swallowed back the tears and the biting comments as Madame LeBleu fussed over the details of the gown. She drowned out any words about the wedding, having heard enough of that for the past few months. When the party needed to view the dress from another angle, she turned dutifully. There were little side conversations going on amongst the other shoppers, the usual gossip, discussion of lace versus silk, nothing that really piqued Jemima’s interest. Honestly, it all sort of blurred together in a dull hum, akin to a swarm of bees inside a hive. That was fine with Jemima, for it allowed her to brood. Ferdinand was right, unfortunately. Lionel had ignored her letters for the past two years. At first, she thought her worst fear had come true – that his ship had been attacked by pirates and he’d been killed. But at dinner parties and balls, she’d heard his mother speak of correspondence they’d recently received from their swashbuckling son, and she knew then that he was avoiding her.
As much as she wanted him to swoop in and rescue her at the last minute, preferably before she arrived at the altar, she knew such a thought was foolish. Besides that, she was angry at him. He’d abandoned her when she needed him most, and it had taken months for her to heal. She still did not feel fully healed, he wound just less raw than before. Marriage to the Marquess of Kingsbury threatened to reopen that wound, and Jemima did not think she could handle that feeling again.
As she contemplated throwing herself in the harbor or falling out a window to avoid marriage, her ears focused on a whispered conversation between two ladies’ maids nearby, entirely by accident.
“Aye, the ship just docked last night, so it did. He won’t be here for too long,” Jemima heard a lilting Irish accent say.
“Is he looking fer work?” a different female voice asked, sounding strongly of Cornwall.
“Aye. There’s nothin’ here but the Navy, unfortunately. Seems he’ll have to go back to Ireland at this rate.”
“Oh dear, that do be a shame.”
“If he doesn’t find somethin’ in three days, he’ll board the Navy ship back to Dublin an’ then find another to take him to the Caribbean.”
A ship? Heading to Ireland and then possibly the Caribbean? Well. That was just what she needed. Her aunt Eliza lived somewhere in the Caribbean, led an eccentric life, and was the black sheep of the Upton family. If anyone could understand Jemima’s situation, surely it would be Aunt Eliza.
As Madame LeBleu and her mother fussed around her, Jemima began to plot her escape.

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Claimed by the Cunning Duke (Preview)

Chapter One

Redmund

 

“Barnabee, if you open those curtains – I shall have you whipped.”
Redmund meant it. Mostly. He would not actually have his dear friend and loyal footman, Barnabee, whipped over something so slight as doing his duties…but the notion was very tempting. He did not think that there had yet been a word invented that was strong enough to describe the sort of fresh hell that was his present migraine.
“As thrilling as it is to be threatened by you this late in the afternoon, my lord, your presence is requested downstairs,” Barnabee answered flatly as he moved to yank open the heavy drapes with little to no deference for the state of his master.
The room went from sullen darkness to the brightness of afternoon in a matter of seconds. Redmund was of half of a mind to hiss and reject the sunlight. It was only the remaining slivers of his pride that stopped him from childishly yanking the covers back up and over his head so that he could hide away.
“You are enjoying this, are you not? I always knew that you were a sadist.” Redmund grumbled mainly to himself as he pinched at the bridge of his nose. He had no intentions of opening his eyes for anything at all. He knew from experience that if he were to attempt to sit up on his own – the dizziness would consume him…or nausea, or both.
Even with his eyes scrunched shut, Redmund could feel the man smirking in satisfaction.
“There is nothing that my parents could possibly require of me that cannot wait until later.” Redmund groaned.
“It is later, my lord….the day is half past already.”
“Truly?” Redmund contemplated for a long moment. “If that is the case, then perhaps it would be best to simply call today a wash and sleep until tomorrow morning. Yes, I think that would be best.”
He was already in the process of burrowing further under his places once more when the footman yanked the heavy blankets off of his person.
“See? Sadist.” Redmund grumbled affectionately. “You had best have something very strong for me as reparations for your insolence.”
“If you allow me to assist you in dressing, you will spare yourself the indignation and punishment of your father coming up here and dragging you out of bed himself. I shall say that his temper is always a magnificent thing to behold…doubly so when it comes to you, my lord.” Barnabee goaded him.
Redmund’s brow rose as he agreed with the sentiment. “None would ever accuse his punishments of lacking in creativity; that is certainly true.”
Barnabee nodded, satisfied that he was correct.
“Actually, I have another idea.”
“Now is hardly the time for your hair-brained schemes, my lord. Now, would you like the green – or the white overcoat for this morning?”
Redmund’s hand pressed into the linen on his chest. It was stretched and wrinkled; he ought to change. Then again, he always did enjoy the look of horror on his father’s face whenever he acted in a way that the man considered to be uncouth. It mattered not that they were in the privacy of their own home. “No schemes. I simply shall order you to leave me at once, return to my father, and tell him that I have a raging fever and my room is covered wall to wall in my sick.”
“As always, I am grateful for your concern for my health and well-being, my lord” Barnabee’s naturally flat cadence seemed to dry further, bordering on sarcasm. Something that very few people would be allowed to get away with in his presence.
“Oh, come off it; father is not going to do anything to you.”
“First…you threatened to have me whipped…now you wish to throw me to the proverbial wolves…why, my lord, it is a wonder that you care for me at all.” Barnabee droned as he tossed the green shirt onto the bed. “Perhaps I shall leave you to dress yourself, then you might learn to value me more properly.”
Redmund gasped and dramatically clutched at his chest before pretending to swoon like a maiden. “Labor? Me? You know, I have suddenly seen the error of my ways.”
“Quite right, my lord.” Barnabee rolled his eyes theatrically and pulled out a pair of trousers for him to don, and tossed those onto the bed as well.
“Fine. but only for you, Barnabee, do not say that I have never done anything for you.” Redmund heaved a long-suffering sigh and hauled himself out of bed. He truly did look worse for the wear. He had forgotten to shave yesterday and had already accumulated a fair amount of scruff on his chin and sharp jawline. He pulled his disheveled shirt off of his person and tossed it to the floor in a pile. Love bites littered his chest as he stretched. No doubt there were already rumors aplenty as to his behavior last night. He had a reputation for being on the wild side; there was certainly no denying that…but he had been in particular form last night.
There were still parts that he could not remember. No amount of lounging around in the dark of his bedroom was going to help him remember. If only his memory did not have alcohol-induced holes in it – he would be better able to defend himself against whatever lecture he was about to receive.
Redmund raked his fingers through his short, wavy brown locks in a vain attempt to make himself look more presentable. Nothing short of a full bath and another twelve hours of sleep was going to accomplish that particular goal.
“Is it truly terrible?” Redmund asked in a voice far more serious than he had been in the entire conversation thus far.
“His temper this morning?” Barnabee answered.
Redmund nodded.
“Rare form,” Barnabee warned gently. For that, he was grateful. At least he had the walk to the drawing room to fully prepare himself for what was to come. As if one could ever fully prepare for something like that.
Barnabee had him dressed and downstairs before he could blink or think up any other reasons to get himself out of this horrible experience. Redmund had neglected to choose a career path post-college, but if he had had to choose a profession – it would be a professional disappointment to his father. He could practically feel the disappointment wafting out of the room and into the hallway where he was hiding.
Might as well get it over with.
Redmund plastered on a bright smile and rolled his shoulders back, and strolled into the room as if he had no concept of time or decency. Father did not so much as bother looking up over the newspaper in his hands to greet his son. His mother glanced up over her needlework, took in the sorry state of him, and clicked her tongue against the roof of her mouth in displeasure.
The act of pretending that he was well and not suffering a tremendous headache was getting more impossible with each passing second.
“My darling son, you could have at least pretended to put forth an effort….?” his mother sighed and tugged forcefully at the needlework in her hands, clearly irritated with him.
“Typical.” Father huffed as he shuffled the newspaper to the next article. “You ought not to ask such strenuous things of him, my dear, or else he shall have to use that empty head of his. If I listen carefully, I can hear the fluff between his ears rattling about – constantly searching for purpose.”
Redmund sighed and sank heavily into the first chair available to him. “So glad that I rushed right down here. I certainly would not have wished to miss out on such high praise from my loving, doting parents.”
He knew that he had made a mistake even before he had finished speaking — but he was not going to allow them to verbally berate him first thing in the morning.
“If you are going to speak poorly about me, might you at least do it in softer tones? My head is throbbing.” Redmund continued. He was clearly a glutton for punishment.
Father’s paper crumpled in his hands as if he could not rid himself of the paper quickly enough. “You have no right to request anything of us! You have not earned the right, much less the respect needed to make requests of me! I swear, every time that I think your audacity has finally reached its limit, you always seem to delight me in showing that no, there are always higher heights that you are willing to push your impertinence!”
The words hurt, but Redmund would never show it. He made a show of shrugging like his father’s opinion of him did not matter as he plucked a grape from his mother’s snacking plate and popped it into his mouth. He pointedly chewed with his mouth open and an arrogant smile the whole time. “What can I say? I am a high achiever.”
Father’s gaze narrowed, and his face was starting to purple with the amount of rage so thinly contained in his person.
“What mistakes must I have made in my life to be granted such a disappointment for a son! You are to inherit my tile! The dukedom! Should that not deserve at least a modicum of respect from you?! You will be the future of this household and the carrier of our family name. Yet it seems that you will not be satisfied until you have ruined everything that I have worked so hard to build!”
“Oh, do settle down, father. It is not as if you are planning on dying any time soon. There shall be more than sufficient time for me to, oh, what is it that you are always saying? Get this out of my system.” Redmund grinned.
“No.” Father continued, sterner this time. “I am done with allowing you to run rampant all over the city and ruin your reputation across the ton. You are grown enough now, and I shall not allow it any longer. It is time for you to grow up.”
“Which one is it, father, that I am grown enough or that I need to grow up?” Redmund retorted automatically. Sometimes it felt as if he truly did not have any control over the words that came flying out of his mouth. He certainly had not meant to antagonize his father that time. There was a level that his father could be pushed to before mistakes would be made — and they were well past that now.
“You are to settle and find a wife. It is my will. It shall be done.”
“And what makes you think that I should suddenly be interested in the idea of marriage? Why would I wish to settle with only one woman when I can have many?” Redmund scoffed.
Mother gasped, scandalized.
“Watch your tongue, boy! Your mother is present, and I will not allow you to speak like that in front of her!”
Redmund silenced himself. It was not his mother that he wished to take his unhappiness out on. She was merely a bystander in his constant war with his father. However, he certainly would not be taking a wife any time soon.
“I do apologize, mother,” Redmund muttered.
“In case you do not think me serious, boy, you will have until the end of the season to find a suitable wife and marry her…or I shall cut you off from the family fortune and disinherit you formally.”
All pretense of arrogance melted off of Redmund’s face instantly as he sat bolt upright. “You cannot possibly be serious!”
Even mother gasped softly in surprise at the severity of the threat.
“You will find that I am deadly serious, boy. You will bend to my will for once in your ungrateful life, or you will be copperless and living on the streets with the beggars. Perhaps then you will learn some damned humility!”
Redmund did not know what to say. In his heart, he hoped that this was just yet another instance where father was throwing his weight around in order to get what he wanted. But, he had done so many times before, and something about this particular threat felt…different. He could not place the why of it…but he was intimidated.
“Now, leave my sight. I can no longer stand the look of your slovenly appearance. Clean yourself up at once. Properly.” Father dismissed him and started to uncrumple the paper that was practically ruined.
Redmund shoved petulantly out of the chair and stomped to the hall once more. Every step that he took caused the throbbing in his head to grow three times worse.
Marriage? In a single season? It was preposterous. It mattered not at all what other people might do or even how commonly the marriages happened…he was not interested. Redmund did not want to settle down…but he also did not wish to lose the allowance that provided him with the luxurious life that he loved.
“Barnabee?!” Redmund shouted, already pulling off the layers of clothing that he had donned not long ago. He had not wished to attend tonight’s ball…but now he would have no choice but to bend to his father’s will. “Ready a bath at once.”
He might have his pride – but it was not worth losing everything he had ever known.

 

Chapter Two

Mary

“Stop fidgeting; it is most unbecoming.” Mary’s mother’s critical eye was a thing of legend. The woman could spot a mistake in a hemline or a missed stitch from a ballroom away under nearly any circumstances. She prided herself on her own needlework skills. So, it was no surprise that she would also desire to hover over the modiste at every possible opportunity to ensure that she was getting the very best possible quality that she could for her money. Mother would walk in circles while Mary stood like a statue for her fitting. The older woman would comment and pinch at bits of fabric and make soft remarks about things that she would have personally done another way or how she thought the designs could be improved.
Normally, this attention to detail would not have bothered Mary one way or the other — but the devil woman knelt in front of her working on her dress kept pricking her. Which meant that Mary kept flinching. At this point, she was certain that her legs from the hips down were going to be riddled with small holes. She was going to be itching at the teeny tiny little wounds for days to come. She certainly was not going to be in the mood for dancing or revelry if this did not stop soon.
But, enduring such torment was preferable to attempting to argue with mother in such a public location. Mary knew it was a losing battle if she had ever seen one. She bit down on the inside of her cheek firmly and balled her hands into fists at her side. Silently, she battled her irritation with the modiste. The woman pinned, tucked, and modified the dress to Mary’s exact frame – so much so that she felt if she were to breathe too deeply that the fine fabric of the dress was going to fray or snag.
Certainly not ideal.
Doubly so because Mary had no desire to attend tonight’s ball whatsoever. She wished to be as far away from it as she possibly could. Staying home would be, of course, impossible. Mother would never allow it.
Mary flinched as the small pinning needle sank into her ankle. She nearly toppled sideways off the circular elevated podium with the sudden movement. “Ouch!” She hissed. Mary started to bend over to rub at the spot on reflex, but her mother smacked at her hands to force her back upright.
“What did I just say?!”
Mary’s sharp gaze landed on the modiste, who simply shrugged and smiled innocently. The way she batted her eyelashes so obviously up at Mary only made her think that the woman was doing it all to her on purpose. With how frayed her nerves already were, she did not need to add a meddlesome modiste to her list of things to think about.
The knuckles on Mary’s hands popped as she clenched her jaw and righted herself on the podium. She trapped her breath into her chest and stood up straighter. She stared ahead into the mirror, watching the reflection of herself and the way her face slowly, ever so slowly, started to turn blue under the lack of oxygen in her system. Surely the infernal woman had to be finished soon? She could hear her mother speaking, but the words did not register. Mary hardly wanted to allow herself to blink for how intently she was focused on her reflection. How much longer? Ten seconds? A minute? The dress was pinned — damn it!
Mary cried out and moved her whole body away from the woman. “That is enough!”
The modiste clearly was not expecting her to actually say anything out loud about the assault on her poor skin. Mother was appalled. All of the other women in the shop looked over at her in stunned silence, but Mary would not apologize when she was the one that had been wronged. They were poking her legs, after all! She was the one who would be scrubbing blood off of her skin because the woman did not seem to possess depth perception! If her gowns were not so painfully beautiful when finished, Mary would have threatened to never come here again.
She would not apologize.
She would not.
Mary could feel the weight of her mother’s gaze pressing into her back as if her eyes were boring demanding holes into the nape of her neck. Despite the intensity of the stare, she remained resolute, determined not to yield to the mounting pressure. Yet, the entirety of the shop seemed to be frozen in time. All of the ladies and their mama’s were clearly waiting for Mary to cave in and apologize for something that was not her fault.
Her lip curled in reluctance to speak…but she knew she had no choice. Not really.
“Apologies…” she muttered and struggled to come up with a suitable lie. Why could the woman not apologize for assaulting her like that? “For the…outburst…”
The insincerity in her words was glaringly apparent, and the modiste’s disapproval was unmistakably etched across her face. Mary was already expecting the retribution stabs.
Her mother’s face was turning red. If she did not know better, she would have thought that the woman was about to explode from rage alone.
“You must forgive my daughter…she does not know what she says. She simply gets these cramps in her legs from standing so long…such a terrible affliction, really. It is a pity that they cause her so much pain…it makes her legs more sensitive as well. Yes. That is why she is struggling to be still like she ought to. Mary is such a sweet girl; never would speak out of turn.” Mother rambled too quickly for a word of her apology or explanation to be believable.
Never mind that Mary had cemented her reputation as being a very difficult girl a good year ago.
The moment that mother stopped talking, the other patrons waiting on their gowns started to whisper. Softly and primarily behind their opened fans … .but Mary could hear it. The issue was that, unlike mother, Mary did not care in the slightest what sorts of ugly rumors and comments were whispered about her. She did not feel shackled to her reputation like most other women in her position were.
“It is the pressure of the debut! That is all!” Mother laughed nervously, addressing the room as a whole. In a display of obligatory sympathy, the other compassionate mothers muttered choruses of “poor dear” and “happens to us all,” as their refined breeding dictated. It was a ritualistic response that wouldn’t alter their true opinions, but now they were obliged to extend sympathy towards Mary’s mother, even as they whispered unfavorable things about her. The chorus of whispers would soon shift to comments like “pity she has such a daughter” and speculation on the difficulties of raising a headstrong and determined girl like Mary.
Well. Let them whisper. It mattered not to Mary.
“I could delay for another year, mother, if that would let ‘settle me down’. Perhaps if I were more ready for this unwanted debut, then my nerves would not cause me to do such scandalous things.” Mary sighed.
“Is that some sort of backward threat?” Mother asked, irate.
“Not at all, mother, simply attempting yet again to express my reluctance to conform to these silly traditions.” Mary huffed. She bit down on her bottom lip sharply as the needle jabbed into her waist this time. Would it be foolishly optimistic to hope that meant that the damned modiste was almost finished?
Mother stepped closer to the podium and lowered her voice sharply so that only Mary would be able to hear. “You will have your debut, daughter, whether you like it or not. Your father has decided it, and you will comply. You will act on your very best behavior.”
Mary was tempted to push the envelope and insist that this was her very best behavior…but she did not fancy being backhanded for her insolent mouth in front of all of these people.
Mother turned to the modiste with a tight, uncomfortable smile. “Will you give us a moment? I should like to speak to my daughter in private…to…settle her nerves.”
“Of course, madam.” The modiste rose from where she had knelt on the ground and dipped into a low curtsy before pulling a curtain shut to partition them off from the other guests. No doubt she was off to join in on the gossip that Mary had just provided them all with. Honestly, they all ought to be more grateful.
It was unlikely that her mother would have a different answer now that they were alone, but she had to try.
“I think that if you asked father sweetly in the voice he likes so much…he would be willing to defer my debut for another year. Just one that is all that I ask,” Mary whispered.
“It is only one year that you ask for now, but I know you, daughter mine. You will ask for one year, and then next year, it will be another and another until you jump right past the marriage mart and straight to spinsterhood. Why anyone would desire that, I shall never understand!”
“I shall not. I swear it. Just this once-”
“Mary, a bit of nerves is to be expected. Everyone is anxious and afraid before their first real ball as a woman. I was much the same whenever I was your age; it is normal…but this is for your own good. You must understand that.”
If it was father’s will…there would be no getting out of it. If mother had truly left this choice up to him…then that was all that there was to it. Once father had decided on something, there was no changing his mind. It mattered not what the issue was or what the arguments on either side might be — he would not be swayed. If father said she was to debut …then she would. She would have to grin and pretend not to hate it with as much ire as she presently possessed.
However, there was nothing in his will that claimed that she had to go easily.
They might be able to make her debut, but they could not make her marry. They could parade her in front of every eligible bachelor in the entirety of London, but that would not mean that she had to choose one. She would not. She could never do such a thing to herself.
If she needed to – Mary would simply stay away from everything and everyone. Her reputation for being difficult would naturally devolve into one of her being outright unpleasant. That would also suit her purposes just fine.
Yes, one way or another – she would survive tonight with as little fanfare as possible.

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Prologue

The note in his trembling hand taunted him, and the words faded to a blur, wobbling behind the haze that suddenly formed over his eyes.
His father was dying.
As expected at the sight of news like this, his heart dropped to his stomach like a rock.
It did not last long, however. The rock disintegrated in his stomach, and his normal heartbeat returned. The initial agony ebbed away, paving the way for the customary resentment that brewed within him whenever the thought of the man accountable for his being crossed his mind.
“Finally.”
It was a broken whisper that left his cracked lips, and a small smile formed on his face.
All his life, his brother had been their father’s alpha and omega. His brother was the sole individual who held any significance, receiving all the accolades and titles, while he, who some may argue had the superior intellect between the two, remained entrenched in the shadow of a man who was deemed inferior to him.
It wouldn’t be that way anymore.
A sharp pang coursed through his heart. As far back as he could recall, nothing had consumed him more than the yearning for his father’s validation. And yet, despite his tireless efforts, he could never do enough to earn it.
He swallowed, the acrid taste of bitterness lingering in his mouth.
It was always the same. His elder brother was the source of his affliction, the cause of his suffering.
From a distance, he had watched his father and brother bond over shared interests, discussing the family enterprises, estates, and titles. Meanwhile, he had been resigned to playing second fiddle to a brother who barely acknowledged his existence.
He was alone, utterly and woefully alone, and it was unfair.
Naturally, he dared not confront his father or brother about this predicament. Should he have attempted to voice his grievances, he knew all too well that they would have likely responded with callous amusement, showing no regard for his feelings.
It was a twisted situation indeed. It seemed as though the harder he tried to win his father’s approval, the less his father cared.
The letter crumbled into a ball in his hand, and his mouth curled in an angry snarl.
He could vividly recall his younger self gazing up at his father and brother with unbridled adoration. The more they pushed him aside, the more that adoration twisted and turned into jealousy. Eventually, it had evolved into a muted frustration and now simmered into an all-consuming animosity, a searing and intense loathing that burned within him.
A laugh escaped his lips. It was a shocking sound, one that almost took him by surprise.
Had he truly not laughed in so long that the sound shocked him?
He was barely a man when his father had sent him away and made it no secret that he was embarrassed by his needy son and had preferred only one child.
Now, a smile formed on his lips, though it held no joy or warmth.
The old man was dying.
“It is my turn.”
The words tumbled from his lips, anger seeping from every syllable, and his fist landed against the wall.
“MY TURN!”
It was, he decided. It was finally his turn to get what he deserved and what he was owed.
The resentment that had nearly boiled over faded, making way for a sense of satisfaction.
Oh, how the tables had turned. Another barking laugh escaped his lips, and he threw the crumbled letter into the fireplace. With a flicker of amusement, he watched as it disintegrated into ash before his very eyes.
This changed everything…

Chapter 1

Margery Owen raced through the thoroughfare with an urgency that matched the frenzied pace of her thoughts. With a sack of flour clasped tightly in one hand and a basket of eggs in the other, her arms strained under the weight. As she stepped quickly down the street, she failed to notice the well-dressed gentleman walking towards her, lost in his own thoughts.
The collision was sudden and jarring, sending both of them tumbling to the ground in a tangled mess. Flour and eggs flew everywhere, dusting the air with a cloud of white and yellow. Margery landed with a thud, her breath escaping her in a whoosh as she tried to make sense of what had just happened.
The gentleman was sprawled next to her, his fine clothes now stained with flour and yolk. He groaned in pain and confusion, his eyes blinking rapidly as he tried to focus on Margery’s face.
The impact sent them both reeling, dazed and disoriented, before they gradually regained their bearings and dusted off their clothes. Margery’s countenance was ruddy with mortification and unease, while the gentleman’s visage registered a curious blend of irritation and astonishment.
“What in the blazes?”
The words left the man’s lips suddenly, and a furious blush rose to Margery’s cheeks. His face was covered in flour, and were she not so utterly embarrassed by her hand in the uncomfortable situation, she may have laughed.
Margery’s heart raced as she tried to regain her composure. So lost was she in her own ruminations that she had failed to take note of the gentleman’s approach. “I beg your pardon, sir!” she exclaimed, her voice betraying a slight tremble. “I didn’t see you there.”
As if it was not bad enough that she had to find a way to explain the missing sack of flour, she now had this stranger glaring at her angrily as if she were to blame for all the world’s problems.
“Obviously,” he sneered, “you’re as blind as a bat.”
Margery’s hackles rose at his reproach, a surge of indignation coursing through her veins. She had always prided herself on her sharp eyesight, but perhaps he had a point. After all, she had collided with him head-on. As she took a closer look at him, she couldn’t help but agree that the situation seemed absurd. He was a towering figure, with broad shoulders and a countenance so forbidding that passersby averted their gaze.
She didn’t know what to say to him, so she remained quiet, knowing that she shouldn’t anger him further.
“Well, you should watch where you’re going,” he said, clearly annoyed. Margery couldn’t help but feel frustrated by his tone.
“Might I ask why you’re carrying a sack of flour in the middle of the street? Are you mad?” he asked, his words laced with irony. The scowl had not disappeared from his face, and in that instant, Margery wished that she could make herself smaller.
With that not being an option, she knew that she had no choice. She lifted her chin and faced him with her own strong glare. After all, she thought with a small smile, she was not a redhead for nothing. Her fiery temper was one that had left many a man speechless.
“I am volunteering at the Society for the Relief of the Destitute Sick. We’re making bread for the poor, sir,” she replied, trying to remain polite despite the gentleman’s rude demeanor.
The gentleman raised an eyebrow, clearly unimpressed by her explanation. “You’ve ruined my suit! Do you have any idea how expensive this fabric is?” he exclaimed, gesturing to his flour-covered clothing.
Margery rolled her eyes, struggling to contain her frustration. “It’s just flour. It’ll wash out,” she said, hoping to diffuse the situation.
But the gentleman was not about to let her off the hook. “Just flour? Do you have any idea how much it costs to have a suit like this made?” he said, his anger palpable.
Margery couldn’t help but feel exasperated. She had no intention of ruining the man’s clothing, and she was doing her best to help those in need. She took a deep breath and tried to remain calm, hoping that the gentleman would see reason.
Alas, it was not meant to be, for the man still looked at her with a dark scowl.
Margery sighed. This was the last thing she needed.
“I really am sorry, sir,” she said again, her voice strained. “I meant no harm, and it was not my intention to cause trouble.”
“Not your intention?”
The man sneered at her irritably and crossed his arms. “Whatever your intentions were, I will have you know that you indeed caused trouble.”
Margery bit on her lip to calm herself. “I am sorry, sir.”
The man gave her a cold stare. “That doesn’t excuse you from being careless. You should watch where you’re going.”
Margery felt her irritation grow. “And you should learn some manners. You can’t simply demand apologies from strangers in such a manner, especially when I have already tendered my apologies multiple times!”
Despite the gentleman’s continued ire, Margery remained steadfast. She had already apologized repeatedly and felt that the man’s anger was unwarranted. As she stood there, flour and eggs covering her person, she couldn’t help but ponder why he was making such a fuss over a spoiled suit. It seemed a minor inconvenience in the grand scheme of things, particularly given that she was volunteering her time to aid those in need.
“I apprehend that your attire may have suffered some damage, sir,” she began in a composed manner, “yet I implore you to consider that my intention was solely to bring about some benevolence in this world. Would it not be more judicious to maintain your composure over a trivial matter such as a speck of flour?”
Margery had hoped that her words would allow the man to see reason, but it soon became apparent that it had the opposite effect.
“I…”
He spluttered indignantly and shook his head.
“I will have you know that I am a member of the upper echelon of society, madam. I demand respect, and you shall give it to me!”
Margery scoffed audibly at this.
Margery found herself increasingly incensed by the gentleman’s insistent demands for respect, which only served to magnify the chasm between their respective social standings. As she absently brushed off the flour from her dress, she was keenly aware of the class divide that separated them. She had long been aware of the strict societal structures that governed their world, but the encounter with the gentleman brought into sharp relief the glaring disparities between their daily lives.
“Respect, sir? You are covered in flour. You look like a walking pastry, I will have you know!”
The words fell from her lips before she could reconsider it, and it took all her self-control to refrain from clapping a hand over her mouth in regret.
She should not have said that, Margery knew at once.
The gentleman’s face darkened at Margery’s words, and for a few moments, there was an uncomfortable silence between them. Margery could feel the weight of her mistake settling on her shoulders. She had let her frustration get the best of her, and now she had offended the gentleman even further.
His face had turned red. She was not quite certain whether it was with anger or embarrassment.
When he finally spoke again, his voice was higher that it had been, and she smirked to herself.
“I…you…I…well, that is beside the point, isn’t it?”
She sighed audibly and looked back at the man. His lips were pursed into a thin line as he glared at her.
Despite the admonishing thoughts she’d had about respect for upper society, a soft giggle left her lips.
“Oh, pray do not take offense, Your Grace,” she said now, amusement taking hold of her. It was rather typical, she thought. Of course she would be the one to run into a nobleman and cover the poor man in flour. Another laugh fell from her lips as she looked at him.
“You must admit,” she said with unconcealed amusement, “that the situation is rather humorous indeed.”
The man’s face darkened even further, and his scowl deepened.
“I will not,” he said in a deep voice, the seriousness evident in the timbre of his tone. “Not only have you ruined a perfectly good suit, but I have had a pleasant evening that you, madam, managed to ruin!”
Margery was at a loss for words. Never in her life had she met someone so utterly humorless, and irritation brewed in her.
“Fine,” she spat, her own irritation finally boiling over.
“I apologize, Your Grace, for the umpteenth time. If it means so much to you, I admit that I was entirely at fault for this awful, awful humiliation you suffered.”
She glared at him irritably. Yes, indeed, how dare she try to make the world a better place and in the process inconvenience His Grace.
The man was acting like spoiled child, but Margery knew that there was no use in saying more. Clearly he wanted to misunderstand her and misconstrue her accident.
“That was meant to be an apology?”
Red hot rage filled her very being at the man’s words, and she opened her mouth to speak.
He did not give her the opportunity to do so, however, as he merely shook his head and left in a huff.
For a few silent minutes, Margery only stood where he had left her.
Finally, she shook her head with a deep sigh. Men and their pride—it was not something she thought that she would ever be able to understand.
Margery lingered for a moment on the street, taking deep breaths to quell the unsettled feeling in her chest. The encounter with the gentleman had left her feeling shaken, but she knew she shouldn’t let it distract her from her commitment to aiding the less fortunate. She had promised to volunteer at the Society for the Relief of the Destitute Sick, and she was determined to keep her word.
Upon arriving at the society, Margery was greeted warmly by a group of volunteers who were diligently preparing bread for the impoverished. Flour dusted the air, and the scent of freshly baked bread filled the room, creating an atmosphere of warmth and comfort. Margery eagerly joined the others, rolling up her sleeves and kneading dough alongside them. The task was simple, but the impact it would have on those who received the bread was immeasurable.
As she waited for the loaves to cool a while later, Margery’s mind wandered back to the gentleman she had encountered. She couldn’t help but wonder about his life and the privilege that came with being a member of the upper class. She pondered whether he ever stopped to consider the struggles of those less fortunate than himself. Margery knew that she would likely never understand his perspective, but she hoped that one day he might come to realize the importance of aiding those in need.
She shook her head silently as she continued working.
As much as the man had blamed her for ruining his walk, his awful attitude had ruined hers.
She could only hope that she never had to deal with that particular gentleman again.

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Prologue

Odette

 

Odette couldn’t shake the feeling she was being followed. 

It began the moment she stepped into the packed marketplace, bustling with merchants and their goods, along with those who perused their stands. 

Odette glanced over her shoulder as she pushed through the crowd, not staying in one place for too long. She had to keep going or risk being caught. 

She dodged a cart full of flourishing cabbages, and the man pushing it gave her an irritated look. She gave him a sympathetic look, unable to offer an adequate apology for nearly knocking his merchandise over. 

Odette’s heart clenched as she caught a glimpse of blue fabric embroidered with delicate silver accents and adorned with shimmering gold ornaments that sparkled in the sunlight. Despite the rapid pounding of her heart, she urged herself to breathe steadily and steeled her nerves. With a determined step, she continued moving forward.

Pushing through the endless sea of people, Odette didn’t utter a single apology to any of them. There was no time, not while the English soldier was surely on her trail. 

No matter how she pivoted or diverted from her original path, she couldn’t seem to shake him. 

He’s a persistent one, she thought to herself as she swerved around a young woman with a child clung to her skirts, paying them no mind. With another look over her shoulder, Odette saw the soldier’s face—built hard like stone and stitched with determination. 

Quickening her steps, Odette planned to lose him one way or another. She moved between two stands and hid behind a group of particularly tall men. Her shoes scuffed against the cobblestone and took her as fast as possible without causing too much alarm. 

Hoping it had done the trick, Odette chanced another peek over her shoulder and gasped when the soldier advanced his pace too. He was much closer than she liked. 

Urgently, Odette focused only on getting away. Her vision narrowed as if she were peering through a tunnel, not looking at the faces of those she squeezed through. She couldn’t spare even a second of her time. 

Her pulse thundered in her ears, an alarm she could only hear. She wasn’t one to avoid all dangerous or compromising moments for her own sake, for grazing unlawful situations often gave her a thrill, yet that instance was more nerve-wracking than she bargained for. 

With a thick wad of money carefully wrapped and hidden beneath the fabric of her modest dress, Odette needed to be careful. She couldn’t be caught, not when others were depending on her to make it. 

Just a little farther, Odette reminded herself even as her lungs burned from forcing her unsteady legs onward. 

If they managed to catch her, Odette could only imagine the horrid things they would do with her—a financier to a group of French rebel countrymen, and a woman no less. 

Pictures of being captured for answers, sent away by ship to another continent and forever labeled a traitor, or even being strung up in the streets for all to see flashed in her mind, and Odette was determined to maintain her freedom. She needed to be careful. 

She had taken the same route to the drop-off point countless times before, but something felt different now. The blue coat that lingered behind her wasn’t a coincidence. She was certainly being followed whether she could stomach it or not. 

Odette broke into an open space in the street and released a shaky breath. She eyed her surroundings, only to find the same soldier hot on her trail. 

“You there!”

Odette’s skin ran cold at the man’s voice, certain it was directed at her. Others turned to look at the scene, but there was no time. She had to save her skin before it was too late. 

Keeping her head low, Odette abandoned all discretion and ran. She shoved through the busiest portion of the marketplace, not stopping despite how her body begged her to. While the extra fabric of her dress felt cumbersome, Odette never let it stop her. 

“I command you to stop where you are!” 

The voice felt like cold hands against the back of her neck, dragging Odette down to her eternal punishment. While it terrified her beyond belief, it only made her feet move faster, as swiftly as she could manage. 

More voices carried across the marketplace, aware of Odette and the chase. She had been spotted, and stealth was beyond her then. She had no choice but to get away while she had the chance, even if the window of opportunity was closing quickly. 

Sucking in a deep breath, Odette ran down the street, not caring who saw her. She turned corner after corner, head full of every fear that chased her like the soldier. She imagined more had gathered with him, after her like a pack of wolves. 

Before long, she would run out of places to turn and need to rely on her quick wit. Weaving through the throngs of people with arms full of goods or their children’s hands in theirs, her eyes darted around the space, looking for any chance of getting away. She needed a strategy, even if everything was developing far faster than she could think. 

Spotting a narrow alley shrouded with darkness, Odette knew her options were abysmal. Veering to the right, she cut through civilians approaching her, stirring a commotion. It had to work. 

Her feet hammered down the alleyway, arms pumping as hard as she could. Her heart ran faster than it ever had, and she wondered how much more it could take before it gave out between the fear and exertion. 

Rats squeaked from within their hiding places in the shadows, but Odette didn’t acknowledge them. She didn’t have that luxury anymore. Whether they were rodents, stray dogs, or beggars, Odette couldn’t wait around to find out. 

Her heart lodged in her throat the moment she skidded to an abrupt stop, almost tumbling over from her momentum. She swallowed hard and felt the persistent strike in her chest. It was a dead end. 

She ran herself right into a trap. 

Oh no, she thought, skin growing cold at the realization. 

The clamor of boots against cobblestone made Odette whiz around, forcing her to face her grave mistake head-on.

Multiple soldiers crowded around the one who had been in pursuit of her for some time, all blocking the way out. Their sheer size and numbers were intimidating, but Odette could only focus on looking for any sort of vantage point to somehow escape them. 

“Gentlemen.” She curtsied and smiled, “How may I be of help to you, sirs?”

“Drop the act,” a soldier said with a hint of mockery in his tone. “Better give up now and come with us.” 

“That is no way to speak to a lady. Didn’t your mothers teach you better?” Odette clenched her jaw and reminded herself to remain calm. She ushered away the panic that crawled beneath her skin and breathed evenly. The men approached her as if they had already won.

She stood defiantly in front of the group of soldiers, her eyes narrowing as she assessed each one of them. She decided that the man who spoke to her first was the ugliest of them all.

“You have nowhere to go now. You’re trapped,” he continued, his voice dripping with malice.

Odette refused to let fear show on her face. “I’d rather die than go with you,” she spat back, her words laced with venom.

A second soldier let out a cruel laugh. “I heard French women prefer it rough.”

Her heart sank, but she refused to let them see her weakness. “I can see your mothers failed in raising you to be true gentlemen.”

“Get her, Collins. We don’t have all day,” someone shouted.

Odette stood her ground, adopting a relaxed posture and placing her hands on her waist. “Let me teach you a valuable lesson your mother didn’t,” she taunted. “You must never underestimate a woman.”

Before the soldier could respond, Odette charged at the ringleader and sent her foot flying. It collided with his face and made a sickening sound. He recoiled at the contact, clutching his face and howling in pain. 

“She broke my nose!” he bellowed, pulling his hands back to see his palms streaked in crimson. Blood poured from his nose and smeared against his skin. 

There was a flickering pause as the men stared at her in shock, surprised by Odette’s ferocity. Surely they didn’t expect any rebelliousness from a woman like herself. 

Laughing at the pained man, she felt no remorse for the soldier. In her mind, he deserved it for even trying to corner her and interfere with her business. She sneered at him, “That’s what you get for underestimating me.”

“Get her!” the soldier shouted, pointing with his free hand while the other held his injury.

The others stormed Odette before she could come up with anything else, yet she struggled against their hands regardless. She pulled and kicked, but it seemed they were suddenly aware of what her feet were capable of and guarded themselves. 

She thrashed like an untamed animal, yet she was soon outnumbered. Her arms were pulled behind her back and tied roughly, held in place by the additional men. 

Dread trickled down her spine, aware that she had fallen straight into their grasp. It was the very thing she wasn’t supposed to do. She was caught and had no choice but to confront her crimes. 

She bit her tongue from spewing every curse and vile thing she could think of, frustrated by not only her capture but for putting herself in that position. She let everyone down. 

Another pair of steps echoed around them and captured Odette’s attention. She peered down the alley and found a tall figure with a muscled frame. He approached them, dressed in a formal uniform similar to those restraining her. 

He looked important. 

The man cleared his throat and straightened his back, face blank. His voice rang with pride, “Odette Toussaint, you are under arrest for treason against the English crown.” 

 

 

Chapter One

Theophilus

 

Theophilus stumbled down the street, his surroundings a blurry haze as he struggled to make his way home. His head felt like a lead weight, refusing to lift despite his efforts. His boots scraped along the pavement, his once steady gait reduced to a clumsy shuffle.

He couldn’t feel his legs; his mind was a mishmash of jumbled thoughts. He wondered for a moment if he had any thoughts in there at all. 

The warm presence of booze filtered through his system and blurred his vision. He hiccupped, stopping himself before he could empty the contents of his stomach with a fist pressed against his lips. He paused and let the feeling ebb before he continued. 

Music from the gentlemen’s club reverberated in his mind like a ghost of the night he divulged. The band had played in the background while drinks and women were passed around with their wanton smiles, and giddy laughter surrounded him. 

While Theophilus had relished in the debauchery, he wasn’t too fond of the journey home. Feeling the toss and turn of his stomach with every step he took, he couldn’t be certain if he’d make it there before his legs gave out and forced him to sleep on the street for the night.

Against all odds, the very house he desired to reach appeared before him, much to Theophilus’ relief. An amused sound left his lips as he climbed the steps, urging his feet to keep going. 

Stumbling against the door, he reached for the knob and gave it a turn, but it didn’t open. Furrowing his brows in frustration, he tried again to no avail. 

“Blasted door,” he muttered to himself. The night’s pleasure fizzled away as he grew more agitated while trying the doorknob. 

With a solid push, the lock released with a click, and Theophilus dove inside along with the door, falling onto the rug that lined the foyer. 

Blinking back his surprise, Theophilus stifled a laugh and tried to sit up. When he focused harder, he found his mother in front of him, arms crossed over her chest. Her face was twisted with disappointment. 

“Have you no shame?” she demanded of him, offering a hand of support as he sat there like a disoriented child. 

Theophilus mumbled to himself, still dazed and trying to piece together how he had ended up sprawled on the floor. He accepted his mother’s gesture, her words barely registering in his mind as he struggled to regain his bearings. Everything felt hazy, like a dream that he couldn’t quite shake.

She pulled him up with that unimpressed look stitched into her features, yet she still aided her son toward the kitchen. He swayed, but she made sure to keep him upright to save them both from another spill. 

Even if she was often hard on him, his mother couldn’t find it within herself to shut him out completely or leave him to his messes. Regardless of the state he was in, she always gave him a hand. It wasn’t his intention to take advantage of a mother’s love for her son, yet he took the help all the same.

The room spun as Theophilus was moved to the kitchen and placed on one of the wooden chairs off to the side while his mother ordered the cook to brew a fresh coffee. He sat there and tried his hardest to process what exactly was happening. He had the feeling he should be wary of his mother’s reaction to his sloppy condition, yet with the drinks in his belly, Theophilus was numb to consequences. 

After an uncertain amount of time went by, his mother handed him a teacup full of dark brown liquid that steamed vigorously. That familiar scent invaded his senses and brought him back down to earth. 

“Here you are,” his mother murmured, her eyebrows knit together. She sat in the chair across from him and watched with a critical eye. “Now, drink it. It should sort you out.” 

Theophilus brought the cup closer and peered into the coffee, just barely able to see his reflection in it. It wobbled and shook with the slight tremble of his hand, as disheveled and unruly as he felt at that moment. 

Before he got seasick from gazing at it, he brought it to his lips and took a careful sip. It was bitter and scorching, burning down his throat. Yet Theophilus was thankful for it. 

“That should about do it,” he slurred, putting a leg out to stand once more. After placing his cup down, he stood, but his legs had another idea entirely. 

Losing his footing, Theophilus stumbled and watched as the floor drew closer, but his mother’s hands secured his arms before it could happen. 

“For goodness sake,” his mother grumbled to herself. She was the only thing standing between her son and the cold stone floor. 

Theophilus swayed, his stomach uneasy. He couldn’t decide if it was simply from the drinks or the impending scolding from his mother. He didn’t have the energy or mind to contemplate it much further. 

Forced back into the chair once more, he received a pointed finger in his face. 

“Sit and stay,” she began, leaning back in her chair more comfortably. “We need to talk.”

Theophilus dropped his chin to rest on his palm, leaning against the table. He blinked back at his mother slowly, his limbs seemingly made of butter. “I’m not in the mood.” 

“I don’t care,” she snapped like a whip, quick enough to make Theophilus recoil in his chair. She took a sip from her coffee and eyed her son. 

It felt like a long moment had passed while she studied him. Her lips formed a flat line—something she often did whenever her son thwarted her.

“Have you no shame?” she asked again, gaze cold and indifferent. “What would Harold say if he saw you in such a state?” 

Dread trickled down Theophilus’ neck at the mention of his brother. A bitter laugh crept past his lips. He spoke against the side of his cup. “He can’t anymore. He’s dead, remember?” 

All meaning was lost from the joke the moment his mother’s face dropped at his words, her lips deepening into a frown. Her eyes seemed to turn a shade darker while she stared at him. He felt every shred of sorrow and anger in his mother then. He wished he hadn’t said anything at all. 

“You worked so hard in the army, yet you threw it all away for the cheap thrill of women and alcohol,” she uttered, her eyes a mix of pain and disappointment. “Your father is furious with you, Theophilus, and I can no longer defend your behavior. You can’t afford to continue down this path much longer.” She sighed heavily, her shoulders slumping with the weight of her concern.

“Can’t this wait until morning?” 

“There will be no time left from how you burn it so carelessly!” she exclaimed, disbelieving her son’s apathy. “Your father and I aren’t getting any younger, and with your brother gone, the dukedom falls on your shoulders. It is in your best interest to take this responsibility seriously.” 

Theophilus wanted to ignore his mother’s words, to brush off her concerns as the ramblings of a nagging parent. But something in the way she looked at him, a mix of disappointment and genuine worry, ate away at his resolve and planted a seed of guilt deep within him. He shifted uncomfortably, unable to meet her gaze as another wave of shame washed over him. He was at a loss for words, trapped in yet another tense stare-off with her. His mind raced, searching for something to say, some way to defend himself. But he knew, deep down, that there was no defense for his actions.

He took a long drag from his coffee and scrubbed a hand down his face. “I’m too tired for this.” 

With a dejected gleam in her eyes, his mother sat back once more, face hardening like stone. Her pitiful look seemed to burn his skin, but Theophilus couldn’t find it within himself to act more becoming in that moment. 

She shook her head. “I expect more from you, Theophilus.” 

Without anything left to say, he simply blinked back at her in the silence that fell between them. 

Ignoring her coffee, his mother pushed up from her chair and turned swiftly on her heel. She stalked out of the room before Theophilus could say anything to try and ease the sting of his insolence. 

With a drawn-out sigh, Theophilus forgot about his coffee and stood to the best of his ability. His head thrummed as darkness shaded his vision for a moment, and he headed toward the doorway with uncertain steps. 

The merriment he had felt earlier that night completely simmered to nothing, and the mention of his deceased brother perturbed Theophilus. 

Harold’s face flashed within the dark space of his mind, and Theophilus fought against the strike it made to his heart. He didn’t want to think about his brother then, not when he always came up whenever their parents needed to compare their actions and accomplishments and remind him he was very unlike his brother. 

His boots shuffled against the floor with each slow and careful step he took out of the kitchen. He moved little by little until he reached the wide staircase that led to his bedroom. He wanted nothing more than to be tucked in his bed to let his drunken stupor fade away. 

Yet, the stairs appeared even taller than usual. With the ache of his limbs and the dizziness in his head, Theophilus decided against it. He imagined himself tumbling down the stairs and winding up as a heap of limbs at the very bottom. Saving himself the trouble, he staggered toward the sitting room. 

The hearth housed an impressive fire, and Theophilus approached it like a moth drawn to a flame. Its warmth soothed his aches and pains, and he thought it was as good a place as any to settle. 

Dropping himself onto the tan chaise lounge before the fire, Theophilus tucked his legs up and curled into the cushion, unfazed by its meager comparison to his bed. He dropped his head and let his eyes close for the night. 

At least then, he could shut out the world and his mother’s disappointment for a few hours. 

 

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The Duke’s Devious Desire (Preview)

Prologue

Genevieve

“If I have told you once, Genevieve, I have told you a thousand times.”

Genevieve’s grip on the book in her hand tightened in anticipation. Her mother had the habit of snatching her daughter’s book as a means to emphasize the importance of her lecture. It usually ended with the book being snapped shut and her mother rapping her on the knuckles with it for daring to read in the first place.

Sure enough, the woman seated across from her in their small carriage did indeed attempt to snatch the book.

“Put…” she tugged angrily, “the book . . . oh, for heaven’s sake!”

When she could not pull the book from her daughter’s hands, she smacked them anyway.

“Put that down and sit up straight unless you wish to grow a hunch in your back! Imagine that. What sort of husband would wish to wed a shriveled old crone?!”

Genevieve relented. She sighed softly and placed her marker in her book before dutifully complying with her mother’s wishes. She watched as the older woman pressed the back of her gloved hand on her mouth as if she was barely keeping tears at bay. It was hard not to roll her eyes over such theatrics.

“Sorry, Mama, please do not cry.”

“It is just . . . you act as if you do not even care about your debut!” the older woman fanned her face with her other hand, pretending to struggle for composure. “One would think you would be excited! Such an important, momentous day like today! Every girl dreams of their first debut! I know I did.”

Not every girl.

Genevieve wished she could speak her mind. She wished to say she was actually so nervous she feared she’d faint. As a result, her stomach would not settle, and reading her book was absolutely the only thing keeping her from losing her mind at that very moment.

“I would spend hours dreaming of the perfect dress or the way I might style my hair. I begged my Mama for the pearls to decorate my hair for weeks before the day! As I am certain you remember, I was quite sought after in my youth . . . are you listening to me? Genevieve?”

It was hard to listen when one was so nervous that the world outside seemed to be spinning in place. She wished she could tell her Mama that she was only making things worse.

Genevieve closed her eyes and tightened her grip on the book, attempting to steady her breathing. If only she could get it under control, then things would be better. In through the nose and out through the mouth. While that particular technique was not the one listed in the medical journal she had read over a dozen times, it was the one she felt worked best for her. She focused on the sound of the leather binding creaking under her gloved grip and the wheels of the carriage starting to slow down.

Her mother had never understood Genevieve’s fascination with the human body, but she could not help herself—she adored it. Her mother found it gruesome and unladylike. Perhaps she was correct, but at a moment like this, it soothed Genevieve. She knew her interests would have pleased her mother if she had been born a man. If she had only been male, she would have been allowed to study. She could have dedicated her life to science and never have to worry about something so silly as pearls and dresses.

The only reason her mother had not attempted to ruin the old, yellowing book in her daughter’s hands was because doing so would incur the wrath of Genevieve. Damaging the things he bought for her would cause more arguments between them. Whether it was ladylike or not, her father understood her desire to learn. When she cried and explained that she wished to become a physician, he was the one to listen and encourage her. While her mother had been the one to stomp on the dream so firmly, it had died at the tender age of seven.

Her mother could not stop her from reading, however. No matter what she did.

The human body fascinated Genevieve endlessly. If only she could remove herself clinically from her present emotions, then she could diagnose and access them, perhaps even come up with a better plan of action.

But then they arrived at their destination. The carriage pulled to a stop behind the already long line of carriages unloading their effortlessly graceful young cargo. A buzz of excited conversation floated in through the open carriage windows, and it seemed everyone was speaking about one thing—impressing the Queen.

Distracted, her grip on the book slackened, and her mother capitalized on the opportunity to yank it from her daughter’s hand with a victorious smirk.

“Now, no more of that nonsense! Sit upright.” The older woman gloated as she leaned forward in her seat, pushing and primping at her daughter’s hair until she was satisfied it was exactly the way she wished it to be. Mother always strove for her version of perfection—no matter how unattainable it might be in Genevieve’s case.

“I do not see why you bother, Mama. They all think me strange anyway.”

“If you would keep your nose out of a book a little more often, they might think otherwise. You have nobody but yourself to blame,” her mother began, and Genevieve sensed a full-blown lecture in the offing. But the older woman suddenly huffed and dropped her hands. “I suppose that is as good as it is going to get. Please try your best not to embarrass me once we are inside. No speaking of herbs or rooting around in the garden dirt. Mind your manners, or you will never find a husband.” She huffed again and looked on the verge of tears once more. “Honestly, child, you have no care for your mother’s poor nerves!”

Genevieve hated to see her cry. “No, Mama, of course, I do,” she said, feeling contrite, glad to see it was their turn to disembark. The carriage moved forward, and the footmen placed the wooden blocks used as steps on the ground, to ease their exit before pulling open the door.

When she glanced back at her mother, she saw her eyes were dry, as if nothing had happened. Instead, she had pasted a bright, cheery smile on her pretty features and stepped out into the warm afternoon sunlight, beaming.

Why can I not ever do that?

Genevieve cursed herself silently and followed her mother out of the carriage, feeling as if every pair of eyes was on her the moment her foot slipped, and she nearly fell sideways from the stepping block. She awkwardly grabbed the footman’s arm to steady herself, smiling nervously.

“Watch yourself, child!” her mother hissed angrily under her breath, her lips hardly moving as she linked her arm through her daughter’s. Mother had always been so effortlessly subtle. The woman had an easy way of expressing herself that Genevieve coveted.

“Sorry, Mama.”

“Do not forget yourself. I do not wish to see you indulging in eating cakes, either. Your hips are full enough as it is. No more than a glass of wine to sip on throughout the evening.”

“I know, Mama.”

“Good. Then I should not have to repeat myself.”

“Of course, Mama.” Genevieve tried to make herself smaller as they moved into the grand entrance hall, struggling to suppress every one of her instincts.

Just for one day . . . just one day when I can be the perfect daughter. Today will be the day when I finally make her proud.

She hated even knowing it was something she wanted. She ought not to care what her mother thought because she knew her own mind. Genevieve knew very well what did and did not interest her, yet still, she craved her mother’s approval. Genevieve was the only child of her parents’ union, and though her father had never seemed to mind, her mother had always made it clear she thought her daughter a disappointment simply for not having been born a male.

“We are not here to indulge ourselves, Genevieve. We are here to make a good impression and please the Queen. You are to attract the eye of every man in the room. Stop fidgeting.”

Genevieve unclenched her fist. The gloves stopped her from biting her fingernails—a horrible habit she nearly always gave into when she was studying or absorbed in a task. Sadly, it had become a comforting action for her. But she could not do it there, so her fingers rubbed together in endless circles inside her gloves as an attempt to soothe herself

I do not want to be a prize. Why can I not just be myself? What is so wrong with that?

But why was she even asking that question of herself? She knew her mother would be only too happy to tell her.

Inside, the lights were too bright. The music, while beautiful, was overwhelming when paired with the loud hum of conversation floating just above it. There were so many things to concentrate on, what not to do, and too many people, their eyes watching her . . . judging her. And it was so very hot!

One foot in front of the other . . .

All of the other young debutants waiting for their names to be called were surely prettier than her. She knew it. She could feel her mother knew it too, from the way she kept looking from one to another of the beautifully decorated dolls waiting near the door, then back to her daughter. Her soft hum of disapproval reminded Genevieve to stand up straighter and not slouch.

Presenting Lady Genevieve Huntley.”

A hush came over the room. Genevieve was hardly aware of moving. Her hands dropped to her sides and it took everything she possessed to keep from fidgeting or walking too quickly. She knew she was perspiring too much and willed herself to stop.

Almost there. I can do this. I can.

She could not meet the Queen’s eyes. Her feet wobbled as she curtseyed deeply, the way her mother had made her practice endlessly, and it felt as if time froze.

Oh, no. What do I do now? Surely, her Majesty will dismiss me . . . she must . . . she will signal for me to rise.

A moment passed, then another, and nothing changed. She rose slowly, trying to look demure, and peeped at the impassive expression on the Queen’s face. One could not meet her eyes directly out of respect for the Crown.

Genevieve thought she might be sick. She was going to be sick. Or faint. Everybody would know she had failed. She prayed for it to be over. Had the other girls taken so long? Certainly not. They had curtseyed and gone on their way. She knew she ought to do the same. Oh, why had she not been paying better attention?

When still nothing changed, she slowly and carefully turned on her heel and started down the long aisle—to a collective horrified gasp from the crowd around her. She froze. Her eyes flicked to her mother, who practically vibrated with rage from the end of the aisle.

Genevieve swiftly turned around once more—but the Queen had her nose lifted, her face turned to the side. She examined her nails as if that were the only thing of interest to her in the world.

Never turn your back on the Queen, you fool!

Tears swam in Genevieve’s eyes as she curtseyed once more, then shuffled awkwardly backwards and away from the Queen. Her feet moved so quickly, she feared she might trip over her own lowered skirts and further humiliate herself in front of all of these people. Her face felt hot. The moment she was within reach, her mother snatched her by the arm and pedaled her away from the disapproving eyes of the ton.

Genevieve had ruined absolutely everything. Her father was never going to forgive her. The empty dance card that hung, ignored, from her wrist was a constant reminder. She did not wish to dance, she hadn’t been asked to anyway.

Mother had not said a word.

This is worse than any of her lectures. She had expected yelling or ominous warnings about what would happen to her once she arrived home. Instead, the silence made the knot of dread in her belly grow tighter and larger as the ball passed her by.

“I need a moment, just to get some air,” Genevieve managed at last.

“Be quick about it,” her mother said, her voice clipped.

Not needing to be told twice, Genevieve slipped out of the ballroom, conscious of the whispers of those watching her, their hands cupped over their faces or hidden behind their fans. She refused to let them see her cry. She refused to lower her chin or look even half as mortified as she presently felt.

Her feet carried her without direction. She was unfamiliar with the palace and did not know the way around. Each turn she took seemed to lead her in circles. Why did any house, however grand the owner, need so many rooms and hallways? Everything was starting to look the same to her—all decorated to suit one specific taste. Suddenly, just as she felt the walls were starting to close in on her, she heard voices.

Her heart hammered in her chest as she flattened herself against the closest wall. Her ears pricked to find the direction the sound was coming from, searching for any indication that she ought to turn and run. They were male voices. She knew she could certainly not be caught without a chaperone. For would that not just be the icing on the cake, a scandal to round off what might be the very worst evening of her entire life?

She inched closer to the voices and peeped unseen through the half-open door. Inside, she saw the warm, yellow glow of a room illuminated primarily by a happily crackling fire. A group of six men stood around it, glasses of some liquor in hand. Several puffed away on cigars or thin cheroots.

Normally, the smell of cigar smoke and warmed liquor fumes would be enough of a deterrent to send her into a rapid retreat. However, the scene had her curiosity piqued. A ballroom full of the Season’s most eligible ladies was waiting for them, yet these men had secreted themselves. For what purpose, she wondered, filled with curiosity Certainly, judging by their lively conversation and laughter, they were not having half as bad an evening as herself. That alone had her shamelessly eavesdropping.

“—see, my dear Warwick, that is where you are wholly incorrect,” one man was saying.

“I will not hear another word of your blasphemy, man! If you cannot see that my judgment is far superior to your own in this matter, then I suggest you finish another glass of this excellent brandy before we revisit this topic,” said his companion with a hearty laugh.

Warwick. Genevieve frowned. How did she know that name? Ah! Her mother had mentioned it quite recently. Was he not to inherit a dukedom at some point or something like that?

“Deductions for size, additions for poise and grace, but that mouth on her. . .” another put in, shaking his head as if in wonder before downing the contents of his glass.

“Hear, hear! The fellow makes an excellent, sensible point!” one of the older men said.

It was hard to tell which voice belonged to which man from where she stood. Carefully, silently, she moved a little to better see their faces.

“Then I suppose an equal argument could be made if the lady has two left feet but a pleasing smile.”

“If her countenance is pleasant enough, perhaps. Though if her size is too large, then there is no hope for her at all!’

“Honestly, some of these mamas would have been better off keeping their daughters in the stables with the rest of the livestock,” said a thin fellow with a pinched face and leering laugh.

“Hayweather, you are too cruel!” another cried, joining in his laughter. In truth, he certainly did not seem too offended by the man’s comment. The words of this Hayweather struck her as vicious, and Genevieve pitied the poor woman they were so vulgarly talking about, whoever she was.

“Very well, then. If your standards are so high, whom would you consider?” the other man asked Hayweather.

“Not many, my lord, not many.” He shook his head in mock sadness.

“Come now, there must be at least one lady you find tolerable.”

“Lady Wharton is pleasing to the eye. She speaks so little, I think I could tolerate her presence on my arm,” Hayweather replied.

“But she is so slight! I cannot imagine the young lady being with child! How could she bear sons?”

“That would be her problem, would it not?”

Genevieve frowned again. Their commentary was slowly shifting from rude to inappropriate.

“I would rate her a six out of ten. Lady Umbridge is a solid nine. I would happily duel any one of you for her hand, at least once I am sober.”

“You are only interested in her because there are rumors she is light of skirts!”

“And if I am?”

The only man who did not seem to join in the conversation was Lord Warwick himself. The men kept directing comments to him, but he simply sat in his lounge chair and sipped at his drink slowly. However, she noticed he smiled at their comments and did not condemn them, and for a brief moment, she thought he was the only decent one among them.

“Lady Aston?”

“Seven”

“Lady Burstock?”

“Hmmm . . . a five.”

“Lady Huntley?”

Genevieve’s blood ran cold. That was her. She was Lady Huntley. She should not listen to this. By their disgusting calculations, she would likely be a two. She knew she would be foolish to subject herself to the cruelty of their mockery. It certainly did not matter what they thought of her anyway! Oh, if only she could rate them and make them feel as sick to their stomachs as she presently did!

“Six. While she is not ugly, she is certainly not what I would consider conventionally beautiful,” Hayweather said after some thought.

It hurt. It should not have hurt . . . but it did. Her hand pressed into her stomach, and she fought tears once more. What did it even mean to be “conventionally beautiful”? Should it not have offended her, even more, to find such horrible, deplorable men found her interesting? Clearly, they had no manner of standards at all! She pitied the poor women they didfancy!

“I think she is very beautiful,” a new voice said firmly. Genevieve’s eyes snapped to the young Lord Warwick, and despite herself, time seemed to slow. He tapped his long fingers against his glass in contemplation, not caring at all that he had stunned the rest of the group into silence. “It is her attitude that ruins it for me,” he added.

There came a beat of silence until another one of the men laughed heartily. “He speaks at last! There it is, gentlemen!”

Then they were all speaking over one another, and she felt the world tilt on its axis once more. The words of a rude man should never be heeded nor taken to heart. He did not know her, so how could he judge her? Still, she was appalled, her breath catching in her throat.

She pressed herself firmly into the wall and tried to steady her breathing. The man was nothing more than a rake and a slanderer. She had never even been introduced to him, let alone spoken to him in conversation! He knew nothing of her so-called “attitude”.

“Is she the one who offended the Queen earlier?” asked one of the men.

“Yes, the poor dear has not caught the eye of a single man all evening. Except for Lord Warwick, it would appear,” put in Hayweather.

“Hardly,” Warwick answered. “She is far too . . . peculiar. She is too smart for her own good. And after tonight’s fiasco, it will take a great deal more appeal than she possesses to land herself a husband, much less tempt a man such as myself into marriage. I am not interested in charity.”

One of the other men lifted his glass. “Hear, hear!”

To her added misery, they then proceeded to toast her misfortune as if it were a joke.

Genevieve felt a tear roll down her cheek, and she quickly wiped it away. A mixture of rage and indignation roiled inside her, blotting out any humiliation.

She pushed away from the wall and stomped away down the hallway. Who were they anyway? She would rather die a spinster if those were the sorts of men her mother wished her to marry! She could not fathom a more torturous fate than having to be shackled to one of those imbeciles for the rest of her days!

She was so distracted, she did not watch where she was going.

Her hip knocked into one of the tables lining the many hallways she had woven through in her effort to find the ballroom once more. She had planned to beg and plead with her mother to be on their way; she desperately wanted to go home.

Instead, she was snapped out of her temper by a vase falling and smashing to pieces at her feet.

She yelped and jumped backward, thankful that none of the shards had cut her legs in the fall. Closing her eyes, she tried not to scream in frustration. It was impossible to hope that nobody would have heard the crash. Indeed, she spotted a small group of people further down the hallway, all turning and looking at her curiously while she awkwardly pushed the broken bits underneath the table with her foot. She could only hope they had not actually seen her break one of the Queen’s vases.

This night could not have possibly gone more badly for her.

Surely, it would go down as the worst debut in the history of debuts.

Chapter One

Edward – Two Years Later

“Get up!”

Edward woke to the sound of his bedroom door slamming open. The intruder clearly had no care for the sanctity of sleep nor the throbbing in his head. He was of half of a mind to protest, but his exhausted mind would not formulate the words.

“You were due to rise with the sun, lazy heir of mine, and yet you slumber!”

His father crossed the darkened bedroom, nearly tripping over discarded clothing on his path to the large windows before wrenching open the drapes, not allowing his son another moment to adjust.

“Get up!”

“No, have you no heart?!” Edward groaned in protest and threw a pillow over his head to hide the light. “I feel as if bees have been set free inside my skull, Father, it is too early for this!”

The man scoffed and shook his head. Kenneth Warwick, the Duke of Rutherford, did not care what sort of night his son had had the night before. His only concern was that the young man get up at a reasonable hour. He was not the type of man who could tolerate laziness, let alone idle hands. To his son’s chagrin, he was a man who loved schedules and sticking to them.

“There now!” Kenneth spun to face his son’s bed and instantly regretted it. “For the love of God, put something on! Cover yourself!”

Edward grinned. “If you did not wish to see it, Father, you could have simply knocked,” he muttered, making no effort to remove the pillow from his face.

“What if your mother had been the one to come and wake you? Even worse, what if one of the poor maids had come in here to witness you in such a state!” the older man blustered.

Edward was not ashamed of his nudity, and he refused to be made to feel embarrassed. “Well, if I were a maid, I would not mind walking in on me in such a state.”

When no laughter met his joke, Edward peeked out from underneath his pillow just in time to see the unimpressed look on his father’s face, punctuated by an uncharacteristic roll of his eyes.

Kenneth crossed to his son’s wardrobe and rummaged about just long enough to find a pair of trousers, which he forcefully threw at him. “Get dressed at once. Your valet will come any minute, and he certainly does not deserve to find you in such a state so soon after breakfast.”

“I do not wish for breakfast.”

“Good, because you have missed it. And before you attempt to explain why, I shall remind you that I have no interest in hearing about whatever exploits you got up to last night.”

“You ought to know very well what I got into last night, Father; you were not always a married man,” Edward teased. It was one subject his father never spoke about. He did not share any personal stories about his earlier life. All Edward knew of the man was what he had personally experienced and the rare stories his mother had told him.

The one exception to that rule was that his father liked to tell every story he could about him and his wife. While his parents never shared much about their individual lives before meeting, they loved telling the story of how they fell in love and married. While Edward sometimes teased his father about his own supposed rakish days, it seemed the old man was as enamored with his wife today as the day they were married.

Consequently, the way Edward saw it, there was no point in marrying a person unless one was wholly and totally head over heels for them.

But why not enjoy oneself in the meantime?

Every woman of the ton Edward had ever met was, in his experience, only interested in what they could get from him. They coveted his money or title, or both. They wanted the best life they could get and would pretend to be anything and everything he wanted them to be, so long as they felt it gave them the upper hand. Out of all of the women he had spent time with over the years, he did not think he had met a single one who was genuine in presenting herself.

He had been raised to understand that such a state of affairs was par for the course, given that everybody knew he would one day be the Duke of Rutherford. People often had a hard time distinguishing him from his title, that was the long and short of it. If a love match to rival that of his parents was not in the cards for him any time soon, he saw no reason not to enjoy himself in the meantime. And as so many of the beautiful, eligible ladies of the ton seemed so interested in having a taste of him, he considered he was simply being courteous in indulging them.

“I am only doing my civic duty, Father,” he said, waiting for the glare that would inevitably come.

He did not have to wait long. “I do not appreciate your humor, Son.”

“You never do.”

“You ought to take yourself more seriously. Have a bit of pride. You might fool those around you into thinking you have no care in the world, but I know well that you understand the weight of your responsibilities. You have managed to put things off for long enough, and today, all that ends. You will be the head of this family before long, Boy, and you will start acting like it. If not for your mother and I, then at least for your little sister’s sake.”

All hint of humor slipped from Edward’s features. He had been teasing, but that was no teasing matter. His younger sister was the most important woman in the world to him. He would never take his duty to her lightly.

“How can I trust you will ensure her future and put her best interests above yours when you show no initiative, no signs of wanting to take over more responsibility? You stay out all night, burn through your allowance at the club! What else am I supposed to think?”

“I would never put her in harm’s way,” Edward countered soberly, pulling his trousers from where they had landed on the bed after being thrown.

“I know my words seem cruel to you, but I will indulge you no longer,” his father continued. “I asked you a fortnight ago to ensure the Liverpool contracts. Have you accomplished my request?’

Edward dropped his gaze. “No, Father.”

Kenneth sighed. “The Abernathy estate? Have you finished negotiations there, then?”

Edward did not answer as he slowly got out of bed and started to dress himself. Kenneth crossed over and placed his warm hands on his son’s shoulders. “You are more than capable of handling all of those things and more. I know you are, but you must learn to follow through. I have such high hopes for you, my dear Boy. Why do you seem so hell-bent on disappointing me?”

Edward could not meet his eyes. He knew the man was right, and he could not speak the words. An apology did not seem nearly sufficient.

It was not as if Edward was intentionally disobeying or disappointing his father. He was certainly willing to take on the duties assigned to him by his position as heir. He simply did not wish to shackle himself to a loveless marriage of convenience. In truth, he found a deep pleasure in the female form. He knew just how marvelous intimacy, and the resulting release, felt. But he also felt sure that if such strong connections could be made out of lust and convenience, then they must be multiplied tenfold with a woman one loved.

He just had to find her.

“You are to inherit my dukedom, Edward.” His father sighed and sat on the edge of Edward’s bed heavily. He cast his eyes down and pinched at the bridge of his nose as if struggling to keep himself composed. “It is past time for you to cease gallivanting around and sowing your wild oats, Son.”

As much as Edward wished to contest the words, he knew with a sinking heart that his father was right.

“Prove to me that you care. I need to be secure in the knowledge that should anything happen to me before my time, or when that time does come, your mother and sister will be well provided for.”

Edward finished pulling his shirt over his head and sat beside his father. “I will, Father.”

“Starting today.”

Something about the finality in his tone alarmed him.

“The Woodvilles will be joining us for dinner today, along with their lovely twin daughters, Victoria and Frederica. I believe it is the perfect opportunity for you to state your intentions regarding Victoria, to move forward with your courtship, while her father and I discuss what all that will entail.”

A lump of lead settled hot and uncomfortable in Edward’s gut. He had no desire to officially court anyone at all, let alone Victoria Woodville. She was the last person he could see himself standing beside at the altar.

“I expect that you will be on time, presentable, and pleasant during the entirety of the evening. I suggest you plan something to entertain Victoria after our meal, perhaps a stroll through the gardens? I am certain your mother or one of the maids would be only too happy to chaperone the pair of you.”

“Yes, Father.”

There was no use in arguing with him—the outcome would be the same. This was to be his fate.

“I expect you to appear a good deal more enthusiastic when you greet her,” the Duke said. He reached over and patted Edward’s thigh, in a gesture meant to offer comfort, but he took none from it. He forced a smile passable enough to have his father nod and dismiss himself from the room.

“Damn,” Edward muttered to himself before rising from the bed. He crossed over to the wash basin to splash water on his face, looking at his face in the small mirror on the wall. Normally, he was quite pleased with the structure of his face. He knew women tended to look on his symmetrical features favorably. It was just about the first time that he wished it was otherwise. He knew Victoria had only agreed to be courted by him because of what she, and her family, could gain from the situation. Even if they were to eventually end things, she would retain the elevated status of a woman whom an eligible duke had previously courted.

The bigger issue was that he could not stand her.

He liked to believe there was good to be found in every woman. There was always something to like, something to be attracted to. Victoria was the exception. He shuddered to think what their children might be like. There would be no escaping such duties were he to wed her, and the very idea of being intimate with her made him dizzy.

Edward patted his face dry with a cloth and gave himself a good, lingering look in the mirror. He could see the toll the years had started to take on him. Small signs, such as the bags under his eyes, which did not disappear so quickly after a long night of indulgence as they had used to. He could feel the exhaustion and fatigue lingering and weighing him down. Perhaps Father was right. Perhaps it was time to put aside his silly dreams of love and start thinking about a more practical future. He needed to think of his sister.

He inhaled slowly through his nose and allowed his eyes to close. All of the thoughts in his mind quieted. There was no reason to fear change, he knew that. He could still find something to be happy in his life. His sister’s happiness was paramount to his own anyway. He would handle it as he handled all situations— confidently.

When he opened his eyes once more, the man in the mirror was somebody different. He was no longer the tired man from before but somebody brimming with confidence and easy charm. He winked at his reflection and turned to face the day.

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